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Missing But Always Near

I’ve been away. I can’t really put my finger on it, but I think that sometimes I equate this site with the grief of losing Harmony. Today, as I meandered through some of the posts, my heart was twisting as I tried to feel joy for all those fur-babies who have humans to care for them. I tried to feel relief for those who aren’t suffering any more. And lastly I tried to feel compassion for those who have taken on the “journey” whether it be a few days or a few years.

I know that we (and our fur-babies) won’t live forever and I’ve lost friends and family, but I’m perplexed as to why losing Harmony still feels like a raw nerve.

She visited me in a dream last week. It’s the one-and-only time this has happened. In my dream I was broken down on the side of the road of a desolate area. It was dark, lonely and very scary. I got out of my car to look up and down the highway to see others, but there was no headlights in sight. I was panicking when a dark object came toward me. It was Harmony in her favorite blue harness. She looked up at me and I immediately found peace and safety. We walked together side-by-side in the darkness until I woke up. Even now I still feel the ‘warm and fuzzies’ I felt when waking from that dream.

Since my last posting, Kingston (AKA Double-stuff) has had three surgeries for MCT. Thank goodness the tumors were detected early enough to be dealt with surgically. We are now 7 months post-surgery with no recurrences. While we check his flesh regularly, we can’t check his internal organs, but we’re optimistically hoping that we’ve addressed the monster and have put it to bed for a while. He is doing very well. The vet approached us about chemo, but he’s six years old now and, for a British Golden that’s a pretty good age, we decided to keep him as happy as we can. He has already spent three months in-and-out of the hospital with sutures, prescription drugs and E-collars. We felt it was time for him to be a dog. We did have a little side trip to the vet due to him eating a bunch of rocks (Good-God-Gurdy) but with some special meds he was able to pass them all. He’s still eating rocks, but at least it’s not 20 at a time.

We’ve also acquired a fourth fur-baby. Completely unplanned, we rescued a puppy we found eating road kill on the side of the road. Unable to find her human (we think she was dumped) we waited to turn her over to authorities. However, the 2 days we had to wait for the establishment to open, we became attached. We took her to the vet to scan for a chip and also to get her health evaluated. She had a cough, worms and still intact. But before the vet would see her we had to give her a name. And let me tell ya, this girl is very vocal. She can hit notes that would put Mariah Carey to shame.

Meet Mariah Carey Klein:

And the best part of this? Her and Mel play like Mel and Harmony used to play. (comforting warm-fuzzy heavy sigh)


  1. benny55


    I have so many emotions…happy, sad, joyful…and so full of love and gratitude that Harmony brought you to us…and you brought Harmony to us!

    I’m coming back, but I just had to make note of one quick thought so I won’t forget…

    You know that warm fuzzy safe and peaceful feeling with Harmony?? That’s exactly how she felt with you!! She knew everything you ever did was out of love qnd care for her💖.

    And you walked side by side…..she was showing you she is STILL walking by your side❣💕 WOW!! Such a powerful message from Harmony!! 😊

    I’m coming back, but I just HAD to make a quick comment and send you a huge hug from one of your biggest fans🤗

    Sally and Alumni Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie too!

  2. jerry

    Ohhhhhhh! Mariah Carey just made my heart go pitter-patter! You and the hub-a-dub are just saints for adopting this sweetheart, bless you both a million times, and thank you.

    It’s good to hear from you. No doubt you equate Tripawds with losing Harmony. We totally understand how coming here is filled with so many complex and difficult emotions for many people whose warrior has passed. We understand and never, ever hold it against anyone. You come here when it feels right and when you return, we are here with open arms, always.

    Your dream was indeed a strong message letting you know you are never, ever alone in this life. Harmony is always around, even when it seems like you’re all alone.

    Thanks for stopping by, we send lots of love to you and the entire pack! Glad everything is going pretty well for everyone.

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